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it's times like now that i wish i had someone to sit in silence with.

but i don't.

i have very few, if any, friends here. most of my friends are spread across the country or are back home.

i used to have a best friend up here, but she's apparently decided i'm not worth her time. i don't know what that's all about.

i have one other good friend, but she works often and is in school most of the time when she isn't working, so i don't get to see her much.

my best friend in reality is my sister, and she's stuck in southern california. and i miss hanging with her so much. she's a big part of the reason i'm moving back home - i need her in my life.

so yeah, basically tonight i'm feeling quite alone. the news of nick's death hit me really hard and i haven't been dealing with it too well.

but tomorrow's another day.