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it's been a while since i've updated.

what's new...

i found out i'll be able to get out of my lease and the end of june instead of trying to find money for july and august and i'll get my security deposit back. this is amazing, because my security deposit was like $1500...i could definitely use that money.

so that means i'm moving back home at the end of june. and i might actually have a place to sleep when i get there because melissa may finallllllllly be moving out. only took her like 5 years after graduating high school to move out, but whatever. i really hope she does because otherwise i'd be living in my sister's room and all of my stuff would be in the atrium. and that sucks.

i also think my eating disorder might be back. i don't have money to go see a doctor or therapist or anything about it, so i guess i have to deal with it on my own. lame. but yeah, lately it's been like i don't even want to eat. i went 4 days eating the bare minimum. not good.

i've been trying to get better about it - for the past three days i've made sure to eat breakfast no matter what time it was, because i found that if i start the day eating i'm more inclined to eat at least one other time during the day, whereas when i don't eat at all in the morning, i don't usually eat at all during the day. only problem with this is that whenever i eat breakfast i get sick. i'm not sure why.

i think that's it. i have girl scout day camp coming up this summer, and i'm so excited for it. i really want to get a job at the library when i get home, but i don't know if they're hiring. but they should hire me because i spent 4 summers of my pre-teen/teenage life there being the top volunteer with the summer reading program, so i know that place like the back of my hand. that would be the perfect job for me. if not, i think i'm going to look into getting a job at disneyland. we'll see.